I don't want to be like those other girls... the mainstream ones... I don't want to be infected by that wretched curse of conformation. I wish to stand out as much as possible but I know that won't help me be noticed by these nefarious, pernicious, blood-thirsty monsters that run our society. Those whose attention I wish to acquire so desperately.
Being relatively significant and popular would make me more exuberant about life and more active. But this.. this sick desire I have to please people is never going to leave my side and set me free into the world. It'll always be with me until the day of my demise. I want myself to let all care about judgement and pleasing people go... and live my life liberally... but there's always this thought in the back of my mind... is what I'm doing the right thing? Will I get judged by other for what I'm doing? I wanna release my desire to please people, this is my quest.
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