I long for that feeling to not feel at all.

I hate you.
I hate what you've made me, an endless abyss of unforgivable spite.
I hate you when you're away because I think of how you treat me.
I hate you even more when you're with me because I melt into your sugared words, my sign of weakness.
I hate you when you're with friends because you act as if nothing has happened, something I try to convince myself everyday.
I hate you.
I hate you.


But you're forever on my mind.


Can you hear my silence,
Can you see the the darkness,
Can you fix the broken,
Can you feel my heart,

I refuse to feel anymore .